Summer is almost over : (

So it has been forever and a day since my last post. What have I been up to you ask? Well, working my butt off and enjoying my summer as much as I can. The last few weeks have been interesting. Crystal, my dear friend who moved to NYC for school stayed with me for a couple of weeks for the summer. While she was here we went out a lot and I was introduced to this really hot guy who I will call Smith. He is half black and about my size, more muscular though and is completely out! The first night I met him he was just too freaking much. He definitely fit the stereo typical gay guy but, once we all cooled down at my friend's place he kind of chilled out and was way more interesting to talk to. That night ended with me on his chest and us holding hands while we stroked one another's chest. : D The next night we went out again and he was preocuppied with his ex-boyfriend, which I didn't know he was his ex at the time, because said ex was drunk off his ass, seemed kind of coked out to me, and apparently leaving with some drag queen from Ru Paul's drag show. Whateva! Anyway I went of my way and followed Smith as he drove the ex home so we could hang out that night. It was worth it because we had great convo and yeah! I invited him out again that week but he had to work, he's a go-go dancer! He invited me to stop by and I did and damn that boy can move. Anyway, he kisses me on the cheek, hugs me as I take him home and takes my shirt. He said so I have a reason to see him again, which I didn't need. So we are supposed to go out sunday doesn't work out, Crystal and I have a falling out. The next day he drives with me to drop Crystal off her at her mom' place. On the way back he was more interested in Beyonce than me, but that was cool. He said that we should hang out the next day and I said ok. I take him to pick up his check, cash it and then drive all around looking for the type of beer he likes. We head to the beach and meet his friends. His friends are cool, kind of like him in the stereo typical way. It was a bit much for me and I kind of shut down. We go out to a bar and for whatever reason I'm not feeling it. I think I expected just us to hang out and not to have to deal with all these people. Did I mention his ex worked at the bar, yeah! We ended the night with him saying he thought I didn't have a good time, which I did and I didn't. I enjoyed being out with him but hated that it wasn't just us. I was being so stubborn and when he asked if I was going to come out again, I said probaly not. I AM SO STUPID!!! He said when am I going to see you again and I just shrugged. He's a smart guy, he knows he could see me whenever he wanted to. Anyway I sent him text eventhough his phone died but he never got back to be so I waited almost a week called him and he said he was as at a party so text him. I did and he never got back to me! He mentioned he doesn't chase guys and I can understand that but I don't like to chase either. I feel desperate! I like but damn! Is this how you get a guy? Do you really have to be so persistent if they really like you or is he just not that into me? Please tell me. All my girls say he should come after you but they're girls! They're used to guys coming after them. I'm going to try again but I don't know when. He actually still has my shirt and I want it back! I love my 12 dollar H&M shirt, he can't have it or he can but he is going to pay for it. Tell me about it!