I'm celibate...

Well, I guess I wasn't having sex to begin with so...I've always been celibate. Hmmm...why do I try to be more clever than I actually am? Anyway Rufio and I are dunzo. He was being flaky and I couldn't handle it. This was after we had a great night out and after I stayed over at his house for the first time. I think I just liked the attention he gave me. Don't get me wrong. I think he is a great guy, but he’s not for me. He's moving in December anyway so I mine as well be heartbroken now. I actually have been dealing with it pretty well. I had myb24 hour post break-up breakdown and have been feeling better ever since. I've been reading, working out, going to school, laughing, crying (just kidddin), and hanging with family and friends. I'll be a better person because of this and I now know what I want from a MAN. I'll miss being with him but he was just the beginning for me and to think I was about to give up my boogina to him, Noah's Arc reference, get with it! The Universe was really looking out for me. Thank You Universe!

I talk a lot about being a gay and a virgin, but I haven't talked being BLACK a whole lot. Well I'll start now. We are doing presentations in one of my classes at school. One of the groups presented on Men and Music. Let me just say that if you’re going to talk about something that might not seem like it’s going to offend anyone but you end up making it offensive that you should really do your research and become more educated on the topic; especially when you are presenting the topic to a group of your peers. That was nice right? These three men who happen to all be of the Caucasian persuasion starting presenting and of course Hip Hop was the first genre they talked about. I had a bad feeling the minute the picture of Tupac Shakur came up. They pretty much generalized how all “black” hip-hop is bad and how Tupac was a “gansta”, please! I was offended to say the least, disappointed in their lack of preparation and how they took the easy way out for their presentation. I say this because they didn’t talk about Eminem, who is the biggest selling rapper of all time, and his role in this violent medium. When they mentioned Jay-Z, who I feel has become less about violence and sex, they referenced his Big-Pimpin video. While that video did glamorize money and sex; it was from 1999!!!!! Use a recent Jay-Z video if you’re going to villainies him! In fact, use Eminem’s Stan video if you want to show what is wrong with Hip-Hop! What was mind boggling is that we just watched a documentary from Jackson Katz, which showed how the men in Hip Hop are emulating White Italian gangsters and how most of Hip Hop is distributed my White corporate men. So for them to make this half-baked presentation was blasphemy to me. As they move from Hip Hop to country. One of these highly enlightened individuals said how if only country would become more mainstream. Maybe just maybe it would filter into other forms of music and it would make these “black” men less violent. Of course he didn’t say black but he implied it. They also talked about rock music but failed to mention punk, grunge and heavy-metal rock. Which some believe to be violent and downright evil. How can you say how violent Hip Hop is, which it can be don’t get me wrong, but not talk about Marylin Manson and how he was blamed for the Columbine shootings. While I don’t think Marylin was to blame many public figures did and it was a big moment in American Music history. The whole presentation just came off as a little biased to me. We have to do peer evaluations and I’m assuming I don’t have to tell you that I didn’t give them a 10 out of 10. Tell me about it!