Boys!

So in my last post I mentioned how I have had many first dates and I have! This year started out great I had met 3 different guy on Grindr(do not judge)…haha They were all different and I love that! I DO NOT HAVE A TYPE!!! At least in the looks department, I love all guys, but it just seems everyone else is not as open. Out of the three I kept in contact with one of them and he was my favorite to begin with. We will call him Alex, he is 31 and an artist. We have been talking for about 5 months there were was point where we did not talk because I wanted him to chase me a little but he did not. I saw him on grindr again and I felt this overwhelming urge to message him again. We started hanging out again and of course I initatie all of our encounters which I told him. He said that he does not text anyone and that he always responds to my texts. He also pointed out that he was feeling incredibly lazy before the last time we hung out but he came out anyway. I had a great time, we had a few drinks and talked like old friends. Prior to meeting up, I texted him and was extremely flirty the most forward I had ever been with him. It seemed to work and we were in a flirty mood all night! I even tried on a pair of chaps in from of him and it was just too much fun! We went back to his place and watched So You Think You Can Dance and it was nice just hanging out with him. We ended up hooking up, we did not have sex but it was incredible! He even texted me the next day which he does not do, we have not talked really since and I do not know what to do. So I am trying to not be needy and keep my distance. There was this guy who I hooked up with on the weekend of Pride who I just was in love with. I did not text him the next day I waited a week and he did not respond. I was kind of bummed but what can you do? I have a few more boys to talk about but I will post more later. Tell be about!

How far I have come…

Hello!!! I could not figure out my password for the site but I am back! So much has happened and I cannot believe how far I have come just in terms of starting this blog. From my first date and kind of 1st boyfriend to where am I now, not being able to even remember how many dates I have been on. Wow! Am I happy?...No!!!...haha I am still in the same place as my last post just with whole bunch of first dates thrown in the mix…haha You know I really choose to be in a relationship right now. I cannot focus on anything else. I feel I cannot be that young and sexy guy that I want to be! My friends still suck! I am ok with it. I am trying to call new friends into my reality and I know it is going to work. One guy who I went on date with recently, mentioned to me that you cannot let people walk all over you and its true! I am like totally going into like asshole mode and I am so nice I usually be like I do not want to hurt anyone’s feelings but you know what? I am focusing on me and just putting my feelings first and worrying about the fall out later. Tell me about it?