Confused!

Hey guys! I started my first week at the university this week and it’s been tough but very exciting! I started at a community college and to finally transfer is amazing. I love the school and I’m trying to be very involved in every way I can. Unfortunately I am not able to live on or near campus so I have to commute 40 minutes every day but it’s worth it. It sucks because I don’t I have a job right now so I have to be extremely scrupulous and that means I can’t buy a parking permit which is almost 300 buck, what a rip off. I’ve been parking wherever I can around school and walking in like 80 degree weather its crazy. I had a job interview though and I think I killed it so we’ll see how that all works.

I am still talking to Rufio and things are slowly moving along. We were supposed to go to the park one day and it was hot so we just went in to his house to watch tv and wait out the heat. We ended up making out and one thing lead to another and yeah. He’s such a good kisser! We went to go eat later and then we came back to his house. His dad was outside watering the lawn and turned his back to us as we went in. That was so awkward I almost made a run for it. We went inside and started to make out again. Only thing was we just ate burgers and his mouth wasn’t the best tasting. I intentionally got my burger without onions and rinsed my mouth repeatedly with water because of this. I told him and he was like I’m so embarrassed blah blah blah. But he didn’t go brush teeth. I guess I can live with a little burger breath. We mess around a little more then we cuddle for awhile.

A couple of days later I invited him over because the family was going to be out and I wanted to spend some more time with him. He said is ok if he comes over late. I said yeah because I had planned to go out with friends beforehand anyway. So I get home and I’m tired so I get ready for bed. He texts me around midnight saying he was too drunk and couldn’t come over. I was pissed. I really don’t know where this going and I felt like why didn’t you invite me out with you in the first place. I just feel like all we do is get together and mess around now. I decide to focus on myself that week and didn’t text him back all week. So he texts me Friday saying am I mad? We were supposed to hang out in the morning but I ended up being busy. I told him no why is he asking. He said because he hadn’t heard from me all week. I said I hadn’t heard from him either. I told him we should get together but he had a party to go to that night so I just left it open.

I texted him the next day asking how the party was? He said it was gay! I ended up going over to watch a movie and make of course. I didn’t stay too long because he had work in the morning. We talked a little today and he called me a tease! I told him we can’t have any type of sex until we get tested together. He said that’s ok. While we were messing around I might have made him think that I was going to go down on him but of course I didn’t. Well if he wants it he has to work for it! So yeah I’m confused! Are we dating? Are we boyfriends? Are we friends with benefits? I should ask him but I don’t want to be the needy one who just can’t enjoy things the way they are. I decided we are going on a date sometime this week. An actual date that doesn’t involve his bedroom. I’ll let you know hot it turns out. Tell me about it!