Did I forget to register for a sex life?

So I was watching Sex and The City, I know how gay of me and Carrie made a comment about registering for a sex life. I couldn't help but think "Did I forget to register for a sex life?" I don't think I did, but maybe there was a form I missed or an e-mail I accidentally deleted. While my romantic life has seen significant gains in the past year, let alone past two months. I can't help but still feel way behind my straight and gay peers. I was on one of my favorite celebrity blogs which featured an article on celebs talking about at what age they lost their virginity. Here are some of my faves: Angelina Jolie at age 14, Daniel Radcliff at age 16, Megan Fox at age 17 and Tina Fey at age 24. Can you believe Daniel lost his virginity at 16? To an older woman I might add. There is something not right about Harry Potter losing his virginity before I. According to the average age of these celebs, I should have probably lost my virginity around age 19...damn!!!

I’m not the type of person who can just go out and give myself to just any guy. Well, not yet anyway. The first time needs to be special or at least feel special. The guys that can give me that, I'm not at all attracted to. The guys I'm attracted to can't, at this point, give me intimacy. Speaking of which, I had a date with Drama Boy and it was fun. We went to an improv show and I was laughing the entire time. There was a really cute guy in the show and it turns out he was gay. I thought so! I don't see Drama Boy and me becoming anything more than friends. He's so nice and considerate but the physical attraction just isn't there. I have a meeting with a guy tomorrow and I'm not at all excited about it. I'm giving the guy a chance because he claims he wants friends and I think that is pretty admirable. The only thing is, he keeps asking for pictures of me. I'm like no! I have pictures up on the website I met him on and if he doesn’t like what he saw then we don't need to meet. Which, I told him by the way. He's not the only one though. There was another guy who I was talking to who asked if I could send him a picture. I didn't even dignify his incredulous request with a response because FIRST we we're already friends on facebook (plenty of pictures there), SECOND I wasn't that into him to be sending pictures of myself and LAST just f*ck off! I might sound like a bitch but we’ve barely had a full conversation but he wants me to send pictures of myself. At least the guy I am meeting had the decency to send a picture of himself before he asked for one of me. BOYS!!!

So to recap; I guess I did forget to register for a sex life but I'm going to do so now! I'm registering at Hot Guy R US and the one I want is going to be between 5'9 and 6'1, be outgoing, compassionate, amazingly attractive and love me for me! It's going to happen I can feel it. Christmas will be here before you know it, so if you want to get me a gift…I’m just saying! I will not be a 24 year old virgin! No offense Tina Fey, but I will either explode or end up going off the deep end. When and who did you lose your virginity to? Do you regret it? Tell me about it!

Are We Cool?

Let me start by saying that I wasn't planning on getting back together with Rufio BUT we are back together. I think I mentioned how I was going to delete him from facebook and his number from my phone. Well I did and the next day he sent me a text saying are we cool? I actually waited to respond because I wanted to think about the question. At that time I wasn't sure if I wanted to respond or not. 15 minutes later he texted me again saying nevermind. I couldn't help be a little giddy knowing that he was getting so upset. I texted him the next day saying that we were cool. I guess he hadn't noticed that I deleted him from facebook yet. So the next day he texted me saying why did I delete him and blah blah... I ended up calling him and we just had it out. It was pretty tame and we just got what we were feeling about the situation out. Pretty much he said he was giving me space and I said I was giving him space and when HE didn't call for THREE weeks I decided to move on. Well we made up and we're "dating" again.

We saw each other Wednesday night and we just walked around the gayborhood before having dinner and dessert. Everything was cool and when I drove him to his car I was expecting a kiss, I didn't think it was unusual. He was like no! WHAT!!! I was schocked. I was persistent and I finally got the kiss I wanted. His lips are amazing and I can't resist them. So we made plans for Friday night, yeah twice in one week, I still can't believe it. I rented a scary movie, Drag Me To Hell to be exact, and headed over to his house. The movie was so funny and not as scary as I thought it would be. As usual I was very into the movie and we barely touched or talked, I was thinking about it of course. After it was over. I tried to get frisky but he wasn't having it. This was funny to me because usually he initiates things. I wouldn't take no for answer, I hadn't turned him down before, so I felt entitled ya know. We fooled around a little then we would stop. I told him that he didn't seem into it at all and he said that he was tired of me teasing him. He says that we mess around and then we don't have sex. So he wants to go all the way and I understand that. If I wasn't a virgin I probably would have fucked, excuse my language, the hell out of him already. I don't know. I just need that one big sign that tells me he's the guy I'm supposed to give it to. We've done everything else, well like oral and what not. So I feel comfortable with him but I don't know. He told me to text him when I got home and he hasn't done that before so I took that has a sign I should keep seeing him. I dont' want to tease him but I'm not ready to go all the way.

To make things worse during our little break. I kind of hooked up and although I'm not ashamed. I told all my friends and my sister about it, I didn't tell him and in return with my guilty conscience, I interrogated him to make sure he didn't sleep with anyone during that time out. I'm such a hypocrite I know. Also, I'm still talking to other guys because I'm not sure if he want to be exclusive and I don't, I CAN'T be the one who gets his heart broken. I think we need to have a date night again and have a little talk about the status of our relationship. Well its Saturday night and I think I need to get drunk or something. Tell me about it!

Crush: Kerry Degman

Kerry Degman is one of the hottest young male models out right now and I have a huge crush on him. He reminds me of Channing Tatum when he first started out. He's everywhere from the pages of GQ to a very sexy Armani Exchange UNDERWEAR campaign. He stands 6 ft tall, was discovered while dropping his sister off at her modeling agency and apparently is still a VIRGIN according to a little interview he did with OUT Magazine. I think we're meant to be together. He has the hottest ass I've seen on a guy in awhile, an even more incredible smile and some crazy sexy obliques. I would no longer be anywhere near a virgin if I had this hot piece in my arms every night. If you want more of Kerry check out this great blog dedicated to him at http://kerrydegman.blogspot.com/. Tell them The Virgin sent you! I'll leave you with this behind the scenes video of Kerry's Armani Exchange UNDERWEAR shoot. Check him out!

To Wong Foo Thanks For Everything Julie Newmar

I mentioned how I watch this movie the other night with Other Navy Guy and I forgot how great it was! It's such a great story of three men who don't live by anyone's standard of "normal". They are who they are and don't apoplogize for it. The little town where they end up staying while their car is being fixed, seems stuck in a time warp. They surprisingly embrace these three "career" women and in-turn they open this little town up to a whole new way up of life. It's an uplifting movie and a great way to spend a night with someone you care about or who you care about at that moment ;-). Check it out!

Random Hookups! : /

Although I haven't gone all the way yet, I'm not a stranger to random hookups. I'm not as bad as some, but over the past four years I've had three random hookups that I don't regret at all, surprisingly. I bring this up because I had a hookup earlier this week and it was panning out to be a nice late night get together. I met a guy online, who by the way works with Navy Guy so he's Other Navy Guy, I didn't mention that I had just went out on a date with his co-worker the night before. I had no idea there were so many gay guys in the navy! I'm thinking of joining : ). Anyway we talked for over an hour and he was so intelligent and interesting. He had some pics up and looked like a pretty decent looking guy. He said he couldn't sleep so he invited me over. I decided what the hell, I needed this. So I meet him and he's not as hot as in the pictures. I've become quite the little actor, I smiled big and fluttered my little eyes and we headed up to his place. He was extremely nice and had so much going for him. We watched To Wong Foo Thanks For Everything Julie Newmar and I forgot how funny that movie was. After that we went to sleep and I thought that this was just going to be an innocent rendezvous. I woke up to him rubbing his crotch into my ass. It was a nice way to wake up but the kissing was horrible and he wasn't in the best of shape. It made it hard to be turned on. We did our thing and I left. He said call him sometime, but he's older and more experienced. Maybe I'm just an old fashioned kind of girl but why can't these guys take the lead. I assume I'm just not the right guy for them and they're letting me know their not my type. That's fine! Rufio texted me last night and was so upset when I didn't respond right away. He's strange. I need a guy who knows what he wants! Preferably me! Drama Boy and I are becoming fast friends and that's really cool because I want a good gay male friend. Boy are exhausting and I know what I have to do. Stop looking! It will be hard but I know that's what it will take for me to regain my sanity. Tell me about it!

I'm moving on and dating!

It has been a two weeks since Rufio and I have talked so I am over him. I’m debating deleting him from facebook and his number from my phone. I am usually very quick to delete people so I’ve waited but I think I will this week just to make it official. Well I haven’t exactly been sitting around waiting for his call. I met a few different guys online and they looked good on paper so I decided to give them a shot.

Guy 1(Navy Guy)-Is tall, has beautiful blue eyes and is actually a pretty intelligent and funny guy. We went to the movies and it couldn’t have gone better. There is one big thing though, besides the fact he has a dog, he is HIV-Positive. That’s a huge deal for me because I want to feel comfortable with the guy I’m with and I just won’t be with a HIV-Positive guy. I kind of new before he told because his profile didn’t say he was negative like most do, but I wanted him to tell me and he did to his credit. For right now he is in the friend category.

Guy 2(Drama Boy)-Is also very intelligent and funny. I am not physically attracted to him, BUT I am not going to let that stop me from getting to know a great guy! We met for coffee and it was very awkward as most first meetings are but we still had a great conversation. He is also in the friend category.

Guy 3(The Teacher)-Is cute from the one picture I’ve seen of him. We’ve exchanged texts and talked on the phone and I liked his voice. His friend was having a little get together at one of the local bars in the gayborhood and he wanted me to stop by. I told him I couldn’t meet him because I didn’t want to meet all his friends. I don’t think it’s fair for me to meet him under those conditions. He was in my area in the morning and I told him that we could meet for coffee. We didn’t meet in the morning but he texted me and told me he really wanted to meet me. I said again we can meet for coffee after he was finished, he didn’t respond. I don’t know about him, but he’s going to have to try a little harder to get me.

Well those are my options as of late, not a bad starting point at all. I want more options though. I sound so ungrateful but I’m 22 and a VIRGIN!!! I really need the basics met; physical attraction, emotional connection and a big…well that’s negotiable. I plan on remaining in contact with all three because I want some gay male friends and 2 out of 3 seem like they could be great friends. I think it’s so funny that these guys are into me when the guys who I want are just not that into me. I’m in such a good place right now and I plan on being in an even better place by the end of the year. That includes a new car, my own place, a great job and an amazing boyfriend! Would love to hear about your dating experiences and what you think about mine. Tell me about it!

Life!

It has been a pretty crazy past couple of weeks for me. School, work or lack thereof and dating or lack thereof has kept me pretty preoccupied. I was so overwhelmed in school that I missed some classes which was typical of me in the past but I hate missing classes and don’t unless something important has come up. I haven’t been working for the past couple of months and it’s been pretty nice with school and everything, but I like having my own money so I have been applying for some part-time jobs. The search hasn’t been too bad but I’m realizing people are so unprofessional it’s ridiculous. I had an interview at one place and totally came prepared and killed the interview. They called me asking if I can come for an orientation on Tuesday morning I say no because I have class. They never call me back. They’re loss. I go to this popular juice place to apply and interview. I get there 5 minutes before and I’m waiting. Then 15 minutes later they come out and get the thing started. They interview us outside at some little tables but the guy who’s interviewing us is like not at the table with us he’s on a step, hard to explain. Anyway halfway through the interview this woman is standing off to the side and I’m like why is the big lesbian just standing there. She didn’t introduce herself or anything. I was like ok. I asked who the managers were and he motioned to the big lesbian. I was like oh! She’s the manager but she doesn’t introduce herself to the people being interviewed? I called a week later to follow up and the guy said that I wasn’t loud enough and my personality came up at the end but there were points when the manager (big lesbian) couldn’t hear me. I politely said thank you and hung up. First of all, we were outside with cars driving by and people walking in and out of the store. I can be loud but this was an interview. Hello! Second, I wasn’t talking to her and she wasn’t really near me so it makes sense she didn’t hear me. But I find that odd because when I made a joke about the head gear they wear she totally cracked up and it went over his dense head.

After that I had an interview with a popular retailer. The interview was fine and I got the job. It wasn’t until the actual day I started working was there an issue. I got there at 9 for our training and they just threw us into work saying they didn’t expect this amount of people. That was fine I am a quick learner and thrive in a fast paced environment : ). I had a problem with a supervisor who was very….an ASSHOLE. Pretty much he was blaming me because he didn’t have people’s approvals ready and took a lunch before any of us workers did. I thought it was very tacky and I decided that I am not going to waste my time working hard for him and not even have the job at the end of it. It was a temporary position. So, now I have an interview Monday and I’m pretty excited about this one. So we’ll see. Ok, now Rufio and I were going pretty strong for awhile and I thought that he was going to be the one I gave it up to BUT I’m rethinking that. Pretty much he’s not treating me right. I have been patient and comprising but he just doesn’t get it. We had a little fight over going to a music festival and I decided that I’ve already proven to him I like him. He’s need to meet me halfway and let me know if really likes me. So we haven’t talked for like a week. He sent me a text with his new number and then left an ambiguous update on his face book about how he’s free and asking “someone” to make plans with him. Of course, I thought it was directed towards me because I am self-involved but my sister says it wasn’t directed to me and Crystal says that even if it was that I’m not in high school so don’t dare respond. I agree! I’m still talking to guys but nothing has really materialized yet. I just want to date, have fun, make some good gay friends and meet a great guy to have mind blowing sex with. The weekend is here and I plan on making the most of it. I’ll let you know how it goes. Tell me about!